Pass the Pills Please

So, I've practically decided that all of the issues that have cumulated in my life - that have left me with all of the baggage that I carry around now - cannot be resolved on my own. I mean, think about it. There are things that I've been trying to get over, but really instead all I've done is supress them until the next rotten thing happens and then I just add the new baggage to my list. I really really REALLY wish I was making enough money to afford a shrink because now I'm so used to the situations that I can't think of anything new or helpful about them.


So, even though OBVIOUSLY I'm not actually downing all of the aforepictured medications - I really want to be able to seek out new ways of dealing and healing all of my past wounds. Since I can't afford a shrink I've been asking a few friends of some other ways to help me. I really want to be able to heal spiritually as well - it's so difficult to reconcile faith after the fact, so I do want everything to be spiritually based. Does anyone have any ideas or any relate-able experiences? I know that it might be a touchy issue - and I'm not asking for any confessions - I really just want to be able to be happy and joyful in my life and I feel like these past experiences are weighing me down.

Help?

Politics and Politics

For those of you who haven't heard - and the only reason you would have heard is because i would have told you - Central Church of Christ has decided to close it's doors. This is the first time I've been a member at a congregation that has made this decision - and it's startling how many people are tied up in un-christian attitudes and situations during this whole process. I have heard about several churches being broken over things like this, and I do admit that people at Central are really striving to make this as healthy as possible - the politics are, however, astounding. And it leads me to the question: why, if everyone is striving to have the mind of christ do such differences happen? I mean, I KNOW why - Satan, yadda yadda, inner sin, yadda yadda, but it is just so frustrating.

On the other side of politics, I think I've discovered that politics are interesting to me. I think I could see myself becoming an aide to a polititian. Can anyone else see that potential in me?- or is this like the time I wanted to be a horse when I grew up?

Comcastic My Asstic!

This is a pity post. I would like to say that it wasn't, but honesty is such a rare quality in the world, why not promote more of it?

I only have dialup at my home and recently Comcast started offering cable internet in my area. Unfortunately the dawn of the Comcast age coincided with my new job at Charter (the other cable company that we don't have here). The repercussions of this were 2 fold: 1. I learned how exactly crappy Comcast is and am hesitant to become one of their customers and 2. I now have a job and must be wise with my money - a decision which calls me to question the validity of spending such an amount for internet. Despite all of these afflictions, the one truth at which I still so inevitably arrive is this: I CAN'T LIVE MY LIFE WITH ANY KIND OF QUALITY WITHOUT THE INTERNET!!!

can i get a woot woot?